So what do you do when the wait feels long? That is my question of the moment. We are so willing to see the next step in this journey. What age will she be and what circumstances will surround her being relinquished into an orphanage? What will she look like and when can we begin to wrap our minds and hearts around bringing her here into our world? I think being so in love with my three boys makes wanting to know “her” even that much more difficult. I never knew that this process would feel so deep, so overwhelming, so exciting. There are so many unknowns right now and waiting on the Nepali government feels hard for a control freak such as me. Some days I want to shout from the rooftop, “hurry it up already!” But then I quietly come back to my center and I realize that this timing is not about me, it is not about what season will be easiest for us, it’s not even about how will we do this when we have to leave three children behind. It is not about which of my sisters will be able to go with us and it is not about the gap that feels to be growing between my youngest Owen and his soon to be sister. This is about faith… It is about adding a child into our family when the timing is right and when all things happen in the manner in which they should. We do not get to control this. Somewhere halfway around the world there is a pregnant woman who wonders how she will care for the child that grows in her body. Or maybe there is a child already born who has nobody to hold and love her, nobody to guide and respect her as she grows up. Maybe there is a grandmother who struggles to feed the five children she has been left to care for. We do not get to know when and how just yet but the story is unfolding and sometime soon God will show us his perfect plan.